Staring into the abyss

I've been feeling giddy for no good reason lately, and in such instances I have glass box in my house which states "In Case of Unexplained and Therefore Unsustainable Giddiness....Break Glass." Inside is a Bergman film. Last night it was "Winter Light." Excellent in every way of course, if 1 hour and 20 minutes of staring into the abyss is your bailiwick. Everyone's life was blunted, wretched, and meaningless. The whole time I was watching it I was thinking "Why am I watching this?" And today I'm still thinking about it. And I'm grounded again.