Go with what you got

I got overly excited by my good rehearsal and decided to add in a lot of stuff. Here we are, last rehearsal before performance and on my own I'm re-working things by the seat of my pants, somehow thinking I can inspiredly pull it all off. I must have given my poor director a heart attack, she sat after me down for a long and very heartfelt, impassioned lecture...sermon...heart to heart on the very nature of acting and performance. I always feel the most abashed when it only slowly dawns on me when I am alone at last at how far from reality my perceptions have deviated. Oh well, live and learn. And then learn again.